The Say Something Project

I know you don’t like not getting all my attention. I thought you were my true love. I thought you could heal me.

I’m mad I was wrong.
I hate that you can’t help me.
I’m sad it won’t work out.
Maybe it will.

You ignored me when I hung out with Potato. That’s not how friendship works. I got better. I got smarter. Healthier. It turns out I still love you. I always will. But that love is what almost unalived me.

I loved you. I had a crush on you for years and was to scared to be a good friend. I wish I knew you were hurting. I wish you weren’t gone. I miss you. I love you still.

I really hope you’re still here. Life is tough right now. It feels like no one stands with me. After Ricky passed, I’m terrified. What if my brother dies at sixteen too? Is he still there? Is he OK? Does Ms. DeNizio ever come back? How’s Forest doing? Is he still here too? Because I’m scared I won’t be. I’m only thirteen, but I doubt I can do this any longer. I hope you tell Mommy and Daddy and Chuck how much you love them before you go. And Mia. Don’t ever let go of Mia.

You were too young to have left us all. This world misses you and you will never be forgotten. Your life was not over, you had more than 16 years in you. Your family misses you, as do I, my friend. I miss you.

I miss you., Mom. I wish things were different and that you were still here. The last 6 years have been crazy and I miss your quiet smirk. I can’t find the reason that you were taken but I hope there is a good one because I know you that you suffered. Hope to see you again in my dreams.

Idiot <3